A Note on Mother’s Day

Today is a day we celebrate the mothers in our lives. For some, this day is filled with joy and laughter and love, and for others, its full of mixed emotions, sadness, grief, loss, and sorrow.

Today, I feel both.

I lost my mother when I was 13 years old. She stuggled with a lot of emotional scars and substance abuse. Ultimately it took her life and took her from me.

For years I struggled with her loss. It took ten years to finally release a lot of sorrow and emotions that were wrapped up in the loss of my mother. Now, I am able to think of her without crying and filled with pleasant memories, instead of the last moment I had with her, which was seeing her on life-support.

Losing my mother was incredibly difficult and no one can ever replace your mom. However, God has blessed me with so many amazing, caring, loving moms in my life since.

These two mommas have been instrumental in my life.

My grandmother has been there for me for so many difficult and challenging events and relationships throughout my life. She always points me to God. Whenever I feel overwhelmed or down, she is quick to give me scripture and guide me through life’s challenging times. She planted a seed in me when I was a teen that started to bloom, and later as an adult, I accepted Christ. She never gave up on me. She just continued to love me and pour the love of Christ over me. What a blessing she has been!

My mother-in-love is so incredible. She loves us so well and showers love on our boys so much! She goes out of her way to visit, send cards, gifts, and selflessley cares for others. My husband was so lucky to have such a marvelous Christian women to raise him. I am so blessed to have a mom in my life that loves me like her own and welcomed me with open arms. She is a mother-in-law that many could only wish for. Thank you, Mom, for being a remarkable mom and grandmother!

In addition to these two amazing women, my great-grandmother was also someone I admired and loved dearly. When my mom lost our apartment, my great-grandmother opened her doors to us and cared for me like I was her own daughter. Even when I got older, I would drive to her apartment and stay the weekend with her. She was so much fun and I loved her dearly.

Now as a mother, I think back to when my children were born and the immense never-ending love you immediately have for your child. I love my boys with everything I have and I am so grateful that God blessed us with these two crazy boys. They are full of life, love, and curiosity. I am blessed to be their mom.

This day bring a lot of joy. But again, a lot of sorrow. My heart aches for the women who desperately want to be a mother. For those that have lost children. To those who have miscarried. To those who have lost their own mothers.

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18 (ESV)

Wherever you are today, however you are feeling, be it happiness or sorrow, joy or grief, remember that you are loved. You are a daughter to the Most High. He loves you so much!

May this day be a blessing to you, may you notice the remarkable gift that the Lord has given us this day. Be inspired. Be grateful. Find the joy in the day. The sun, the warmth, flowers, all the little moments. Feel blessed and loved, because God made this day for you. May we rejoice and be glad in it!

Love you all! Happy Mother’s Day!


What is True?

Plandemic or pandemic? 
More to it or not?
What is truth and what is fake?

These days it is really hard to decipher what is real and what is not, what is true and what is fake. There is a lot of information flowing around online and distinguishing what is real is almost impossible. Is there more to this pandemic? Or is it as is seems? Are we not being told things? Is Big Pharma involved or not? Is there more to this than meets the eye?

I honestly don’t know what media form to trust anymore. But there is one that I trust and can fully depend on.

God. 

John 14:27 states, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” God is with us always. He is our Comforter. He goes before us and is stability in a world that is full of chaos. It seems as though we can’t trust what we read or what we see. But you can trust in what you cannot see. In John, we read about Thomas, one of the twelve disciples. The other disciples told him that they saw the Risen Lord, but Thomas said, “Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe.” Days later, Thomas was with the disciples inside, the door was locked, and Jesus came and stood and said to them, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side. Do not disbelieve, but believe.” Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1). Even though I cannot see, I believe. Even though I cannot trust the world, I can trust my God. Even though I feel confused and not sure what to believe, I can believe in God. 

So regardless of what we read, what we see, what we are told in the news and media, remember that you can believe in the Lord. He is our only truth, His Word is the same today, tomorrow, and forever, and is always beneficial. So if you are feeling lost, confused, angry, hopeless, turn to God. Give your fears and concerns to Him and feel the power of peace that only God can provide.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. (Romans 15:13)

If you don’t know God and want to know more, I am always here. ❤